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Worry

I’ve been contemplating some personal problems of a primarily financial nature lately. Since I was laid off last year I knew that financial problems could catch up to us pretty fast. And that was even though I got a pretty good severance package when I was laid off.

It took me until December to find a job and the severance package pretty much ran out by October. Because of that, bills piled up and we had to get caught up after I returned to work. Part of the problem is that I took a lower paying job than expected. I did that so that the income would at least be better than just getting unemployment (when the severance ran out, all we had was unemployment which was not even half of what I was bringing home while employed). Now I’m starting to get the itch to find a better paying job while I am employed here (it’s always easier to find a job while you have one then when unemployed).

We are still a bit behind on the mortgage and the oil bill. There are also some credit cards that have a higher balance and minimum payment than I would like. It all weighs heavily on my mind.

I should also say that I am not happy in this job since there are a couple of dynamics (personality conflicts and organizational quirks) that make my job more taxing than it should be. One other thing is that I am getting a vibe that I may be cut loose here in the next 6 months or so. I think there might be a shift in management focus. Also, some decisions I made that upper management may not be comfortable with if/when they come to light and the bills come due could be a problem. It kind of scares me that I might get canned either because of either situation or a combination of the two.

So I worry. A lot! I think that is why I have not had much to say to blog land lately. Maybe now that I’ve talked about it I’ll feel better about it. I mean, my wife and I talk about the money issues and I know she worries about them, too, but I feel like they are all on my shoulders. I know they are not but it still feels that way (particularly if I lose my job).

posted by section306g @ 8:48 PM