Shhh, It's a secret!

First of a series.

Today's writing is the first in a series describing a sexual enounter(s) I have had in my past. I thought it might be interesting to try and go back and see if I can capture my youthful naivete, exuberance, lust etc. and relate it here. Stop me if it bores you.

Early in my adulthood, at about the age of 18, I joined the Air Force to get away from home and as a way to get and pay for my college education. I really had no idea (being young and ignorant) that the whole experience was an education in many ways.

But anyway, the first real adult sexual experience I had was not physical, although I wanted it to be.

One of the things you have to do in the Air Force is attend a Technical Training School. Mine was in Texas. All of us students at the school were fresh out of basic military training, young, in great shape and horny as hell. During training, the Air Force made us live in dormitories called "mods". Each of these mods had six bedrooms, a common bathroom and a common living room. Each bedroom was shared by two students. As you can imagine, this kind of hampered sexual encounters. I'm pretty sure that was part of what they intended (as a by product of cramming us together to save space). These mods were always segregated at that time (only men or only women in each one). So as we tried to get laid, we always had to juggle when we could do the deed in privacy. The people that ran the school also kept checking in on us to try and keep us from getting laid (among many other infractions we were not to commit).

"Cayleigh" and I were in Air Force technical school together back in 1990. She was a cute, strawberry blonde with a great ass and smallish tits. I met her while we were both assigned to a make work detail of some sort (probably cutting grass or something like that). They used to give us shit details like that to keep us busy between classes and such. Cayleigh had a great sense of humor and could cuss like a trucker. We kind of hit it off and decided to go out to the NCO club on a Friday night for dinner, drinks and dancing. We had a blast going out and I really liked her but I was so young and naive that I wanted to wait to get to know her better before we fucked. This was even though times were different back then, all you had to worry about was STD's and pregnancy so I was not afraid of anything like that. I wanted to love her before we did it. I was young and had high morals. I think I scared her off because we did not go out again right away but I was (ugh)smitten with her. I was keeping an eye out for her around base though and she was making the rounds of the guys and it hurt me. Naively, I wanted her to love me. It's really odd to think about it now.

Finally, one Saturday afternoon, I went by her room to see her and ask her out again. She was there . I knocked, she opened the door, gave me a kiss on the cheek and asked me in. As she closed the door I noticed her room mate was not there and she locked and chained the door. Mr. Naive here totally missed that first clue. She was wearing a thin short kimono and not much else under that. Clue number two missed. She said have a seat (pointing to the bed) and I took the chair by the bed. Clue number three missed. She laid down on the bed, sort of on her side, knees bent, kimono partially open. Clue number four missed. We were talking about our training, graduating soon and getting assignments. Then the talk turned to sex. It quite often did with her (she was very open about sex from the day I met her) and she started talking about her blow job technique. MAYDAY! Humongous clue number five! Yes, I missed it, too! I was soooooo young and inexperienced that Ithought it was just talk,that's it. Looking back on it now and I could have jumped into it with her right then! I'm sure she wanted to. God, I was ignorant then!

I'm sure it frustrated her but she did not let on. We did go out one more time before we both left that base. It turns out that we would both have our next assignment in the same place over in Japan. We never did do the deed together and we became very good friends. I will say this though, in Japan, she was fucking the guy in the room next to mine and I used to hear her moan and wail all the time. It worked as a stimulant for my masturbation at the time. Yeah, I'm a sleeze.

Cayleigh did introduce me to my next infatuation. "Shelly" was a co-worker of hers. She was tall (5'9" or so), long brown hair, from Texas. Fun loving, intelligent, liked to dance. I fell for Shelly pretty hard the last 6 months I spent at that base in Japan. We never hooked up either. Less naive but still too moral, I just could not sleep with any girl at that point in my life. Oddly enough, I did have two one night stands with girls I picked up in the NCO club there though. I think the difference was that I did not LOVE those two one night stands - I LUSTED them. Big difference for me at the time. I would not have married either of those two girls but I would have married Shelly or Cayleigh. I was pretty mentally fucked up by my Catholic school upbringing before going into the Air Force and it took about two years for me to start coming out of that. By that time, I had been given a new assignment to a base in Maryland. That's for the next chapter.

posted by section306g @ 10:56 PM